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a handful of days into being lore sick cw: emeto reference

[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-05-18 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
"You really don't intend for us to sit in here all day, do you?" Vergil asks in a tone that's easily the most agitated and irritable Mizu has ever heard Vergil sound. He does not know whether his sour mood is a credit to how he is feeling physically—and he is not feeling well, if he's completely honest—or if simply being more or less cooped up in his bedroom for several days is taking its toll more severely than it had in the beginning.

He hasn't eaten much over the course of the days that he's been forced to stay in bed. It's less of a loss of appetite and more than subsequent stomach cramping seems to always ensue at a minimum and swift, forceful expulsion of what he's consumed on the worse end of it. So, whatever bit of hunger every now and again Vergil feels, he tends to ignore until he cannot any longer. That length of time does not appear to be nearly as long as it ought to be, as it typically is, however. Vergil believes it to be evidence of how hard his body is working in trying to manage all his other symptoms that hunger is so quick to return to him.

At this point, Vergil's torn through a few boxes of tissues, and he's had to swallow his pride a few times and ask Nero to read to him when the sinus pressure and headaches become unbearable. The most movement he's been permitted by his nursemaid of a son is generally around his room to tend to his indoor plants, to the bathroom by himself (though not without Nero vaguely hanging about), and to the couch if he wishes for a vague change of scenery. (Vergil supposes he would be permitted into Dante's room as well if he wanted, but his brother's untidy room is not something he wishes to find himself sequestered to for any particular length of time. Nor does he wish to listen to Dante's coughs and sneezes when he's already so sick of listening to his own.) He has yet to admit it aloud, but Nero's suspicions that Vergil looks faint, dizzy, and a little unsteady on his feet are not misplaced. There have been a few times where such movements have left him feeling exhausted in a way he has not felt since... Well, since a little over a year ago now. And that's not to mention the patches of unfamiliar scales that itch almost incessantly. Vergil avoids picking and scratching at the affected areas as much as he can since it only seems to expedite their spread, but he still inspects them often all the same.

Oddly enough, it's the scales he hates most of all. When he tried to access his even further accelerated healing through transforming, he learned quickly that the scales remain. The physical reminder of whatever blight he's managed to contract is enough for Vergil to be more agitated about the scales than anything else.

But even with how he feels physically, Vergil has not been discouraged from trying his damnedest to wear Mizu down enough to let him out of the house. Some part of him recognizes it to be a futile task, of course. Nero wouldn't allow it, and while Mizu does not answer to him, they are clearly in a coalition of sorts with one another when it comes to the matter of Vergil's care. Thus, given Mizu is not one to change course once it has been decided all that often, it's a false hope that Mizu might allow Vergil to venture outside the house as a secret between them. Especially when this is not like the situation on the train in that it is not nearly so heavy a matter and Vergil is without reasons that appear so much less selfish on their surface. But he argues for it akin to a petulant child whose gentler requests were denied previously all the same and huffing and puffing is all he has left.
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-05-18 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
The bonk is light and gentle, but his head feels so thoroughly full that he still winces at the contact with a frown. It's not the sort of thing that would bother him enough to wince under normal circumstances, which speaks to just how extraordinary this all is in the absence of all the other obvious evidence regardless of whether it is his mood or his physical state that ultimately causes him to react.

"That is when I am not confined to bed for days at a time," he says, bristling a little at the teasing. That is most certainly a consequence of his mood to have such defensiveness emerge. "These four walls is all I have known for days. I am only permitted to read or sleep without someone hovering over me as though I were an incompetent child. And even then, I rarely am afforded that much."

Vergil pauses, but not because he feels the need to be more thoughtful with his words as so often his pauses are meant to serve. It is a shortness of breath that strikes instead. In not wanting the impending thinness of his voice to undermine his argument that he is well enough to walk outside, he pauses. Subtly as he can, he catches his breath and smothers a cough by reaching for and taking a drink from his nearby glass of water.

With a little sniffle as he lowers the glass back down, he continues, "It's not that I am ungrateful for your company, but this is not how I wish to spend time with you. Not now. You would feel the same were our positions reversed."
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-05-23 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
Vergil huffs a sigh when Mizu begins to speak. She does not need to finish her sentence or say more for him to know the answer has not budged at all in his favor. Even if she talks of that possibility of the bed being hers—which he does not believe for a second Nero would allow even if it were possible when he was already hesitant about what this illness could do to a human if it were contagious; that would just send the child into a spiral of anxiety about what might happen if Mizu were to fall ill and they were both stuck there and blah blah blah—all Vergil hears is another bed.

Setting aside his glass, he folds his arms. And just like that, he sinks a little lower until he's in a pronounced slouch. If his bottom lip were out, he'd be in a full pout like this. He retains just enough of his dignity and maturity not to do that, but Vergil still rolls his eyes at the promise of another day spent doing as he pleases with her. They both know that by the time he is healthy enough, he will have no desire to place any demand upon her as far as what they do together is concerned. He will have returned to his normal routines by then, and have the full breadth of his daily life by then that there will be no great urge as there is now. He glares over towards a corner of his bed hard enough that it's a small wonder that it does not spontaneously catch on fire.

"Rest does nothing for this," he spits back without looking at her. "I am the same as I was the day before and shall be the same tomorrow regardless of what I do beyond being in an even more foul mood than I find myself now. Assuming, of course, that I do not begin losing my mind from being held prisoner in my own bedroom and begin paranoid ramblings about the walls themselves."

Vergil talks enough that his breathing grows harsher and he has to take a moment to catch his breath. It's just enough that his frustration spikes his temper. He's not one to speak at length unless he feels the need to outweighs his natural inclination for silence and quiet, and yet he cannot speak as much as he would like to now because of these damned symptoms. Vergil shakes his head and roughly scoots himself the rest of the way down, rolling over and turning away from Mizu. He does not bother with slipping under his covers, stubbornly refusing to be in bed properly as a petty act of defiance against the restrictions placed upon him.

"You've wasted your time in coming here today. I'm not in the mood for company, not even yours. Go home, Mizu."
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-05-23 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
Although he feels the weight of her on the bed, the mattress dipping as she settles nearby, Vergil does not look over his shoulder at her. He does not so much as spare a glance even as Vergil hears the familiar creaks of a book's spine as its opened. Stubbornly, he glares out the window, at the outside world that he's being denied and resolves himself to outright ignoring Mizu. If need be, of course. He could absolutely envision a scenario in which she simply sits there on his bed, nearby and reading more about London. If anything, in that situation, he would be the one ignored.

But as it is, neither comes to pass.

Vergil is still foolish enough to believe he could steel himself well enough to avoid and ignore her, and he makes an effort to do so. But every one of those efforts is spent in vain. She reads words of poetry to him, and Vergil cannot resist the urge to listen. To eventually recite little portions of the verse to her before she has a chance to read it from the book before allowing her to continue. It's not exactly a call and response, but neither is it a correction. It is them. Together. He goes from his back to her, to facing her on his side. Not long after has Vergil slipped into her lap. From where he is and can see, he reads alongside her silently until his eyes feel too tired to continue. He lets his eyes fall shut, and he begins to drift then. In and out. Sometimes its her voice. Sometimes it's an idle touch from her like fingers in his hair. But she falls in and out of focus as sleep tugs at him.

Vergil does not ultimately acquiesce to it by the time the book is closed even if he does not open his eyes.

"You did not need to bring that with you," he says, unable to mask just how close he is to sleep with the edge of his temper earlier dulled completely. "His works are in the anthology Nero gave me for Christmas."

With great effort, Vergil rolls over. He looks up at Mizu briefly, for as long as he can open his bleary eyes before they fall shut and he settles back down just a little further. Much as his words may sound it, he's not dismissing the gesture.

"You've never needed that book at all though, have you?"

She brought it here for the same reason she has it in the first place. It's for him. Something Vergil has never really acknowledged before now.
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-05-24 04:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Vergil makes a little noise of protest as she lays down on the bed given that he's inevitably jostled by her efforts to lay down. He tells her to stop. At least, he thinks he does. Vergil isn't entirely sure if the word actually leaves his mouth and if it does, that it resembles the word at all. Either way, his displeasure at her moving about is made known. Not that it stops him from adjusting his position once she's laid down. With her lap gone, Vergil moves a little higher on her to use her stomach as the place to rest his head.

"You're a terrible pillow," he mumbles as he nuzzles her a bit, draping his arm over and holding onto her like he occasionally does a real pillow. The gesture likely undermines his criticism. As does how he curls closer to her with a little sniffle. He mumbles again, "Pillows don't move."

Once settled and through with chastising her for making him have to move and adjust, Vergil falls silent and still. It may seem as though he's surrendered to sleep finally after a few moments with just how silent he is and that his only movements are the rise and fall of his breath. He certainly comes close to it. Even without the blankets over him, he feels warm and comfortable. And he's more soothed by the feeling of her close to and partially beneath him than he thought possible. But he moves a little further up again, using her chest as his pillow instead so he can listen to her heartbeat and the draw and release of her breath as well.

"I'm sorry," he says quiet enough that if there were more than just the silence in his room, it would be easily missed as little more than a sleepy sigh. Vergil tightens his hold on her just a little more. "I haven't been sick since... Well, I was small enough not to really remember it. But that's not an excuse to act like a child.

"I was not telling the truth. I do not wish for you to go. I want you to stay. It is just that I am..." Vergil pauses a moment, thinking back to how he explained it to Nero days ago now. "I am accustomed to being alone. There has been no one else for a very long time."

Vergil knows Mizu already made the decision to disregard his earlier command to leave. Fortunately for him, the people who love and care about him the most are generally not dissuaded by his foul mood. (Nero makes no secret of how he feels about Vergil's bad attitude in contrast to Mizu simply overlooking it entirely, but the boy removes an immovable object nonetheless.) To whatever extent they can, they do understand it's not such a simple matter for Vergil to be like this and to allow them to care for him. He is far too fiercely independent, accustomed to nearly forty years of looking after himself for it to be an easy or smooth process of allowing anyone to take care of him. But even with all that understanding and persistence, he thinks it's better that he says it nonetheless.

At least that portion. He keeps his overall discomfort with the possibility of worrying her as his reason for not disclosing what was wrong to her sooner to himself for now. Particularly when it feels so utterly foolish in hindsight.

Quietly, he admits to her, "I would be fine managing this on my own, but... I'm glad...that I'm not alone anymore."

Even if he is horrendous at showing it sometimes.
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-05-25 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Frowning a little with his eyes closed where she cannot see, he says, "I do not whine."

Just as he does not nap.

It is also far from the point that she is making, but Vergil lacks the words to respond to it. Some of that is due to his fatigue and the drowsiness that's taken root. Some of that is because it remains such a novelty that someone would want to stay and look after him. He does not know how to explain it any further than he already has how much it means to him, and it feels easier to simply sink into that warm feeling right now than trying to find the words for it. A little indulgence while he does not feel his best... Vergil sighs softly, nuzzling a little at the hand running through his hair.

"I like when you do that," he says. It's only a confession insomuch that Vergil has never said it aloud that he likes when Mizu runs her fingers through his hair. But it's unlikely to come as any great surprise to Mizu that he likes it considering he's never once issued a complaint over it or gone to any lengths to discourage it. "But I am going to fall asleep if you keep it up."
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-06-11 08:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Vergil sniffles a little as he listens to the steady thrum of Mizu's heart beneath his ear. It fades in and out of his conscious awareness just as her fingers running through his hair do as well. Sleep is beckoning him more and more, and his resistance to it is certainly beginning to wane. Not that he's particularly eager for sleep. He's tired of being so fatigued and prone to drifting off, and he wants time with her after days without seeing her. But he feels safe and warm enough in her embrace that it's only a distant thought that he's meant to protect her, and that he ought to remain awake until she falls asleep. Vergil's fingers curl slightly into the fabric of her clothes, trying still to so stubbornly stay awake even as he cannot keep his eyes open any longer. Never mind that holding onto her has the opposite effect on his ability to stay awake.

"You were there last time. You stayed for me..." he says, not providing any other detail or explanation as to what he means. It's not likely clear whether or not he anticipates she already knows he means Amrita, not even to him with how drowsy he is right now. But Mizu had sat nearby to him patiently while he slept and slept and slept upon his rescue. He had been exhausted then rather than sick, but it was still much the same. He needed the sleep, and Mizu was there to oversee his rest. Not that Vergil had thought much of it then or had any expectations that she would sit with him that diligently. Mizu certainly didn't owe it to him and could have gone about her day, and he would have been just fine on his own. But she hadn't abandoned him for longer than was strictly necessary, and Vergil slept deeply and peacefully after days of nonstop vigilance. Vergil draws a few deep breaths before mumbling something almost absentmindedly. Most of the words are lost, but there is one part of what he says that would be more difficult to miss as he asks, "Promise you'll stay...? For me...?"
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-06-18 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
It's a dreamless sleep that Vergil falls into once he's out. Not something he's particularly grateful for until he's awake again. And able to appreciate it properly, of course. Hours later when he finds himself awake again, Vergil is not immediately oriented to much of anything. His awakening for Mizu is likely signaled by the sudden shift in his breathing from those long, slow breaths into a sharp inhale. Much like the proverbial cat that a much shorter nap is named after, he stretches where he lay before bonelessly resting against Mizu again. It's enough he knows he's still in his room, and he's still with her.

"What time is it?" he mumbles on his exhale. Not that time holds any particular meaning to him right now. Vergil has nowhere else to be and certainly isn't permitted to leave this bed for very long anyways even if he did. But he would like to know just how long he has been out. Even if he's able to rationalize to himself that it's a good thing, a sign that he feels safe and protected, he's not a particular fan of how much and how often he's been sleeping these past few days. Naps are not about to become a habit past this illness. Slowly, he reaches a hand up to rub the heel of it against one of his eyes in an attempt to get them open again. He blinks blearily at his room from his current vantage point of resting his head upon Mizu's chest still.
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-06-18 03:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Vergil grunts his acknowledgment of her greeting as he briefly rubs sleep from his other eye as well when he realizes he's in need of it. His hand slips from his face back to her side, allowing him to hold her once more. He turns his head, resting his other cheek against her chest so that he can look at her better albeit still not properly. He huffs in quiet amusement about her supposition that Keats could somehow make someone ill sound better than it truly is.

"I fear not even Keats—nor any of my other poets for that matter—would be able to mask how terrible I must look," he says before propping himself up on an elbow. He uses the brief leverage to press a kiss to the corner of her mouth. "But I appreciate the sentiment all the same."

Vergil lays down once more, this time slipping one of his legs between hers near to their ankles. A familiar move in an otherwise somewhat unfamiliar situation. In the mornings they share a bed with one another, Vergil has a tendency to seek out these little points of contact, using them as excuses to remain as they are rather than rising from bed to begin the day. Vergil lets his eyes fall shut again, but without any intention of slipping off back to sleep again. He's had enough of that for now. He would just like to be close to her still and give himself the opportunity to rest his eyes. (Another frustrating aspect of this illness has been how often and frequently his eyes seem to fatigue and are prone to straining relative to normal.) He does still sigh ever so slightly.

"I'm sorry I fell asleep for so long. While my fussy nursemaid has been so strict, I've grown to miss you, and I had no desire for today to be spent parted from you in slumber." Vergil knows Mizu does not need such an apology. As such, to some extent, he isn't really apologizing. It's more an expression of his greed for her company than anything else, and he highlights that somewhat by engaging in a bit more playful banter with her. "Ruder yet, I fell asleep while we were talking and as a consequence, I've no recollection what we were discussing. I only vaguely remember you had concluded reading. If you wish to claim I agreed to something I normally otherwise would not, I shall believe you wholeheartedly and keep my purported word at a later date as a mean of righting such a transgression."

He doesn't anticipate Mizu will sincerely take him up on that, but if she does, she had best prepare for him to sincerely follow through on it later even if he'd meant everything in jest.
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-06-19 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
Vergil huffs again in light amusement, avoiding a fuller laugh to hopefully not spurn on a coughing fit, especially when he is so close to her. Even if he's not actually contagious with this illness, he'd rather not all the same.

"With as congested as I feel, I'm not certain I would be able to properly taste whatever poor blend of seasonings you used until it drained my sinuses enough," he says. Which is not really meant to be a misplaced compliment to her cooking so much as commentary upon the strength of his general symptoms. The first handful of bites of the soup Kyrie has been making for him and Dante usually tastes very bland, and are a bit difficult at times to get through. All Vergil has with those few bites is the way the broth soothes his throat. It's only once he pushes through that that he's been able to really savor just how good it really is. "Your rice would be lovely, but you may be better off reheating leftovers from Kyrie's soup if the intention to to avoid my nausea returning than trying to make anything yourself."

He pauses a moment before adding, "You should help yourself to some as well if you're hungry. I doubt she will mind considering how much there likely is still leftover from the last batch. I'm actually not entirely convinced the girl did not spend some Lore to create a pot of endless soup considering Dante appears to have not eaten his way through it."

Then again, Dante may very well be protesting the diet of soup and making demands for some kind of pizza. His loss and Mizu's gain if that is the case.
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-06-23 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
Vergil huffs strong enough in his amusement at being accused of being a leech that he must turn his face from her to cough a little. It's not a prolonged fit, and one he recovers from quickly.

"You flatter me," he says. And also really is not making that strong of a case that he should move and allow her to leave the bed for the soup in the first place if she's going to stroke at his hair again. Granted, it's not having quite the sedative effect it had a moment ago, but it is still hardly discouragement for remaining close to her and continuing to use her as his pillow. Even if her stomach does growl at the prospect of a more filling, proper, and likely far tastier meal. Vergil chooses not to draw attention to it by asking her questions he can likely guess the answers to when it comes to her diet. Kai has all she could possibly need or want by now most likely, but that does not make Mizu particularly attentive to her own needs as far as that is concerned. She is not starving, and she is content enough with that regardless of how much she enjoys Vergil's cooking. "Terrible enough that it is I am unwell, but you had to compare me to a leech? You could not at least compare me to a limpet? Or perhaps a remora? At least provide me with the illusion of some capability of independence right now, and that my son is not essentially using you as one might a babysitter..."
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-06-23 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
It's difficult not to find her laughter infectious even as poking fun at him is entirely the reason she laughs in the first place and it's perhaps ill-advised for him to laugh too much. He's at least able to chuckle a little without agitating his cough or shortness of breath, low and quiet.

"Quiet, you," he warns playfully before "silencing" her with a kiss. At this rate, he thinks, Nero and Mizu could probably take this act on the road in poking fun at him while he's ill as neither of them have hesitated on the matter. But he keeps such a thought to himself. No doubt they will exchange notes on their own in due time if Mizu intends on stopping by with any regular frequency while Vergil is unable to go to her. He needn't expedite the two of them conspiring against him so quickly.

The kiss is brief if for no other reason than Mizu's bubbles of laughter and giggles defeating its primary purpose easily. Vergil does not mind. It is so good to hear her laughter that even sick as he is, poor as his mood has been, even he cannot resist the flutter in his chest. Without settling back down, he says, "I cannot help but feel I am permitted a bit of latitude in my unwillingness to have you leave my side. It has been a miserable, lonely past few days.

"But fine. If I must release you then I shall. But you are not to tarry and return to me quickly. I am not overeager to begin missing your presence again so soon."

And with that, true to his word, Vergil does shuffle over into his own space again, granting Mizu the freedom of movement once more.
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[personal profile] antimetabole 2025-06-25 02:39 am (UTC)(link)
While Mizu prepares the soup, Vergil lies there, hand on the warm spot where she was laying just a moment ago for a little while longer. He's sitting by the time she returns with the soup bowls. Although he accepts the bowl she offers him, he frowns a little in confusion when she leaves the bedroom again. He glances at the bowl on the nightstand as a sign she intends to be right back, but he cannot imagine what for until she appears in the doorway again with tea. He smiles a little as she settles back onto the bed and returns the kiss.

"Maybe so," he says, adjusting his hold on his chopsticks so he can begin to eat. "But that's a comment best kept between us. I don't believe Kyrie would take any offense to it even without knowing the full story, but Nero is..." Vergil pauses a moment to think of the best word to describe his son's tendency to leap to Kyrie's defense at the vaguest sense of attack or offense. He pushes a few vegetables around aimlessly. "Nero is quite protective of the girl. Needless to say, he goes above and beyond.

"Not that I can particularly fault him for it. Kyrie has been a constant in his life since he was a small child, and as I understand it, she was always willing to stand up for him even when no one else would."

And Vergil knows he doesn't need to explain to Mizu why that would make her so important to Nero. Or that it's still something that Kyrie is willing to do to this day given the conversation Vergil came home to on Kyrie's second day in Folkmore almost a month ago.

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